I am a bowl of spaghetti...
I ran too far yesterday in addition to playing ball. I seriously think I'm overdoing it on the whole getting in shape idea. So now my legs and pretty much my whole body feels like spaghetti. Even my neck hurts, but I think that comes from falling asleep on the couch for a couple hours...but nonetheless, it contributes to my soreness. But hey, no pain, no gain right? I just wish there could be less pain and more gain...
Thoughts to Ponder...
Intimidation...what is it exactly? Because I was told recently that I can be an intimidating person... Judging by the looks of me, I'd have to say, that is quite hard to believe...very hard to believe in fact. Well, I guess before peope used to peg me as a thug, only b/c of the shaved head and the fact that I smoked a lot back then...and therefore considered me somewhat the intimidating type. But that has no basis of validity so we'll just rule that out. So back to the fact...I am considered to be intimidating...and the reason for this was because I seem to be good at everything I do...that is a big misconception. I just ENJOY doing everything I do, which keeps me free from pressures or expectations or whatever...but that's what I think it is. I'm not afraid to do things and maybe it's my "enthusiams"? I don't know, if you figure it out before I do, then please...get to the bottom of it.
Ever wonder why you're drawn to a particular person and not to another? That has always intrigued me. You may have a million things in common w/ a certain person, and you guys get along so well, and there may even be a "chemistry" there, but you're interest lies in another person who doesn't have so much in common w/ you, strange, don't you think? It seems that this aspect of life would be a more on the black and white and not so much the grey area...but nonetheless, it is...love is just one giant grey area. And we are all trying to sift through it...and figure out this enigma. Ahhhh, the paradoxes of romance...and Feelings...and dealing w/ them. I think it just gets more complicated the longer you DON'T deal w/ your feelings....and that's when carnage ensues. So let's avoid the carnage folks...he he he...
I had a ton of "Jaytime" yesterday...I got in a cleaning FRENZY and practically spic n spanned the entire living room and kitchen...it felt good...and I went on a run, watched some FRIENDS season 1...nice to be alone...but during alone time, you kinda think about the concept of alone time, and the concept of being alone...and that's when alone time become being lonely time...ha ha ha. Though it's not a thought to dwell on, I had some time to ponder my "singleness" and my want for non-singleness...and I just want to meet someone who catches me off guard and just wants to spend time w/ me, even if it's doing nothing but walking and talking, that'd be enough for me...and so the thoughts about loneliness passed. We'll just have to see what happens next....
Hmmm....I almost forgot to mention my weekend. I spent Friday night at dinner w/ Friends for Cat's b-day...HAPPY B-DAY CAT!!! And of course that was fun. Cheesecake factory topped by throwing back a couple @ the yardhouse. Her friend was there...and I was tempted to ask her out sometime, but had second thoughts about it and ended up just chattin and not asking for her number or anything, being informed previously about the difficulty in trying to get a date w/ this girl. So I did what I thought I should do and enjoyed the company... Saturday was spent driving back to LA and spending quality time w/ moms shoppin all day and later on puttin up blinds all around the house and moving furniture until I passed out from exhaustion, more or less. Not to mention I watched a series of movies from the "Joy Luck Club" to "Enemy of the State." Sunday, still at the folks' place...I went to church and spent more time w/ the fam, mom, pop, and my sis and niece came over...I even cooked some lunch. We played until it was time for me to head back to the OC. Then I went to a wedding w/ Kay...which was hella fun...I love weddings. That was pretty much my weekend...memorial day was yesterday...so in case you don't have a good memory...see above...
I ran too far yesterday in addition to playing ball. I seriously think I'm overdoing it on the whole getting in shape idea. So now my legs and pretty much my whole body feels like spaghetti. Even my neck hurts, but I think that comes from falling asleep on the couch for a couple hours...but nonetheless, it contributes to my soreness. But hey, no pain, no gain right? I just wish there could be less pain and more gain...
Thoughts to Ponder...
Intimidation...what is it exactly? Because I was told recently that I can be an intimidating person... Judging by the looks of me, I'd have to say, that is quite hard to believe...very hard to believe in fact. Well, I guess before peope used to peg me as a thug, only b/c of the shaved head and the fact that I smoked a lot back then...and therefore considered me somewhat the intimidating type. But that has no basis of validity so we'll just rule that out. So back to the fact...I am considered to be intimidating...and the reason for this was because I seem to be good at everything I do...that is a big misconception. I just ENJOY doing everything I do, which keeps me free from pressures or expectations or whatever...but that's what I think it is. I'm not afraid to do things and maybe it's my "enthusiams"? I don't know, if you figure it out before I do, then please...get to the bottom of it.
Ever wonder why you're drawn to a particular person and not to another? That has always intrigued me. You may have a million things in common w/ a certain person, and you guys get along so well, and there may even be a "chemistry" there, but you're interest lies in another person who doesn't have so much in common w/ you, strange, don't you think? It seems that this aspect of life would be a more on the black and white and not so much the grey area...but nonetheless, it is...love is just one giant grey area. And we are all trying to sift through it...and figure out this enigma. Ahhhh, the paradoxes of romance...and Feelings...and dealing w/ them. I think it just gets more complicated the longer you DON'T deal w/ your feelings....and that's when carnage ensues. So let's avoid the carnage folks...he he he...
I had a ton of "Jaytime" yesterday...I got in a cleaning FRENZY and practically spic n spanned the entire living room and kitchen...it felt good...and I went on a run, watched some FRIENDS season 1...nice to be alone...but during alone time, you kinda think about the concept of alone time, and the concept of being alone...and that's when alone time become being lonely time...ha ha ha. Though it's not a thought to dwell on, I had some time to ponder my "singleness" and my want for non-singleness...and I just want to meet someone who catches me off guard and just wants to spend time w/ me, even if it's doing nothing but walking and talking, that'd be enough for me...and so the thoughts about loneliness passed. We'll just have to see what happens next....
Hmmm....I almost forgot to mention my weekend. I spent Friday night at dinner w/ Friends for Cat's b-day...HAPPY B-DAY CAT!!! And of course that was fun. Cheesecake factory topped by throwing back a couple @ the yardhouse. Her friend was there...and I was tempted to ask her out sometime, but had second thoughts about it and ended up just chattin and not asking for her number or anything, being informed previously about the difficulty in trying to get a date w/ this girl. So I did what I thought I should do and enjoyed the company... Saturday was spent driving back to LA and spending quality time w/ moms shoppin all day and later on puttin up blinds all around the house and moving furniture until I passed out from exhaustion, more or less. Not to mention I watched a series of movies from the "Joy Luck Club" to "Enemy of the State." Sunday, still at the folks' place...I went to church and spent more time w/ the fam, mom, pop, and my sis and niece came over...I even cooked some lunch. We played until it was time for me to head back to the OC. Then I went to a wedding w/ Kay...which was hella fun...I love weddings. That was pretty much my weekend...memorial day was yesterday...so in case you don't have a good memory...see above...
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